Confession...

Confession....

My motivation has slowed my progress down just a little bit.

On Tuesday of this Week I went to the ER with some Abdominal Pain (and I didnt go to the gym)... turns out, I just have suckie girl problems. Ew. 

And then Today, which is Thursday, I didn't go to the gym either as result of my suckie girl problems and something is tweaking out my back! I slept on it wrong Tuesday Night, Pushed through Leg Day on Wednesday (oh, the squatting pain) and now suffering the consequences Today. 

My husband told me that if My back is not better by tomorrow, we will have to go to the Chiropractors office. (I love his office. He makes my bones feel like they're shattering... weird kind of amazing good pain....) 

But ya know what? I CANT MAKE THAT AN EXCUSE.

I am setting my alarm clock tonight for 5:30 tomorrow, and I am gonna push through, and finish this week strong. I am gonna turn my set back into a comeback. 

To workout, or not to workout? What a stupid question. 

Seriously... I get high, off of the endorphins I get from working out. I seriously cant function right if I dont get my workout in. 

I need to do this. I need to do this for myself. I need to prove my inner voice wrong that tells me that this "couch is so comfortable, and those potato chips are so good, and these PJ pants still fit." 

I cannot give up now. I made a goal, and this time, I am going to keep it. I want to see 120 on the scale, I want to see 20% (or less) Body Fat... I am GOING to see that... and in fact, I would love to have at least 95 pounds of muscle on my frame!! More muscle= more calories burned doing nothing! Who loves to burn calories while you do nothing! I DO!!! 

Who knows, maybe after I hit my goal weight and BF%, I might even want to think about doing a Bikini Body Competition... but I am not gonna get that crazy (yet.)  Gotta take the small steps first. 

I need to remember that If I cheat, I am only Cheating myself. And that is a fact. I made a Goal, and now I am going to show the whole world that I am going to keep it. Turn your dreams into plans, and put those plans into action! I can do this, and so can you! 

You can do it. 

Just do it.

Wake up with Determination, go to bed with Satisfaction.

The Hardest Step is the first step.....

So do it... Take that first step.

Free fall into the unkown...

Cuz when you loose your excuses, you find your results. 

Trust me. 40+ pounds down, 10 more to go. 

Since I am starting to loose my excuses, I am slowly starting to find my results. 

So, I am signing off to catch some ZZZs before the Gym tomorrow! 

Spanks for Reading!

Shanbug <3

My "Overweight" Rant... may offend some.

Well, I was going to take a nap today with the kids...
And then I got on FB.
Stupid FB.... I swear.... Almost every single time that I get onto it, I get angry.... and today it was because People sit there and complain on FB that they are over weight....
REALLY PEOPLE? You're complaining publicly that you are fat?
You want a quick fix to make you skinny?
You want a magic pill?
You dont want to change your diet?
You DONT want to work out?
You dont have time to work out?
YOU ARE MAKING EXCUSES!
If you have time to sit there and get on FB and IG, then you HAVE TIME to work out.

Get off your ass and do some Jumping Jacks... Some high Knees, some Burpees for goodness sakes!
Oh, you "dont have time cuz you got kids?" Honey, I have 3 kids under three. I know what "not having time" is.
WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR KIDS WAKE UP!
I bet you find the time to have a couple beers here and there.... why dont you make life a little bit more productive than getting drunk on your back patio, and do some damn Planks?
And by the way, if you didnt know, Beer makes you fat.. PERIOD!

And if youre one of those moms that say "All the extra time I have (which is none) I want to spend it with my kids rather than working out" heres an idea!!!
BUY A FREAKING STROLLER AND GO JOGGING ONCE A DAY! Get a bike with the little bike buggy thingy and go for a freaking bike ride! GO OUT FOR A FRIGGIN WALK WITH THEM! That burns more calories than making some lame excuses, and logging to to FB and Complaining about you being FAT!

Let me get this straight....

I was a single mom at one point.... for 8 months of my twins lives! I lived off 2 hours of sleep, but still got up and did some 20 minutes at home workout with Jillian Micheals. Then I moved to utah, and my boyfriend, (now husband), moved in with me. I didnt expect him to take care of the girls. I didnt know where he stood with them... and yes I still made "me time".... I woke up early to wash my hair and shave my legs, and most the time, workout! I could have made all the excuses in the world:
I have twins, I dont sleep at night, I cant afford a gym pass, Id rather spend time with my boyfriend, I would rather spend time with my kids, I have to clean the house... BLAH BLAH BLAH!
Yes, all that stuff is important.... I do love spending time with my kids and my husband... but seriously.... dont make that an excuse of why you are not working out.

I hate hearing people complain about their mommy pouches, and how they want to get rid of them....
You want a flat stomach? Do some cardio, and eat clean! Its simple as that. 80/20... 80% Nutrition, 20% exercise.

I had twins, and another baby... do you hear me complaining about my mommy pouch? Nope...
Dont get me wrong, some days I have bad days... then I gotta get someone to slap me around and say that it is MY choice to be fat or to be fit.. and personally, I choose to be fit.
Am I all the way there yet? Not yet... But I bust my ass every Morning in the gym so that one day, I will be strong, lean and fit.

HERES SOME TRUTH
to all you people out there who complain about your weight, and your body not being skinny, and that you have fat every where....
THATS YOUR CHOICE!
you are the one sitting on your ass and doing nothing.
You are the one going to sleep late and waking up late.
You are the one who is feeding yourself all that junk food!
No one is forcing you to eat all that crap that you are eating that is making you fat!

Instead of that bowl of sugary cereal in the morning, try some fruit.. or some oatmeal.
Dont grab that "satisfying snickers bar" at snack time.. pack some carrots and humus.
Oh, you eat at McDonalds for lunch? Eat a salad, not a burger...
Stop drinking soda... drink some water with lemon in it.

One bad meal wont make you fat, just as one healthy meal wont make you skinny.

GTFO FB and IG and move your body....
And if you are not willing to do that, then STFU about how you are "over weight" or how you "dont like your body" or how you want to "be skinny so bad"
Its really annoying, and it makes no sense what so ever.

Rant Over.
Shanbug <3
 

Workout Confession...

I was doing so good... Working out every day but sunday... 6 days straight...
Then Sunday Night happened...
As my husby proceeded to tell me that he is going on a camping trip with the youth... ON TUESDAY.
Oh my gosh...
You have 24 hours to plan, buy and pack everything.. are you serious? What about my workouts? I cant skip 4 days and then just hop back on the bandwagon.
I could Rant on and on about this... but I shouldn't.
I am such a prepared freak, its not even funny. If I know we are going somewhere, I start packing like 2 weeks before. I have lists after lists of things I need to bring and do and like 2 days before we even leave, I am ready. My Husby, on the other hand, is completely different than me.
Thats okay though.... I still love that man.

I had to give up my workouts... Just for this week. Luckily, I was only on Day 7 of 84 days.
I talked to my PT and he said it would just be best if I were to start over on Monday..
So here I am... on Tuesday... counting down the days till I can start training again.

Being here with the kids is fun, and hard. Thank goodness we have Nonnie here with us... she is such an awesome help. I love her... (thats my mom... there is no such thing as "Grandma" in this house) lol.

I really miss my husby and all... he's only been gone like 12 hours. (If you cant tell, we dont spend a lot of time apart... this is only the 2nd time I have been away from him for longer than a night... we love eachother... A LOT)

But...... I REALLY miss the gym.
I love how it makes me feel... all gross and sweaty and sore and stuff. I love that feeling of "oh my gosh, I am going to die..." but pushing through the workouts and coming out on top.  I love waking up the next day, and barely being able to move. That feeling is THE BEST.
Not to mention, I suffer from PPD ever since baby Lucas was about 3 weeks old... and on days when I go to the gym, I don't have it! I swear, its my drug, and I am addicted. I feel like I am having withdraws... like a freaking crack head.
I'm sitting here on my computer like tweaking out and stuff.
-Just Kidding, maybe-

But anyways, I just thought I would be truthful to you all about my workout schedule.... It makes me feel better about myself.
For some strange reason.

-Shanbug <3

Mondays Workout

Hey everyone...
I would have written this post tomorrow, but I don't feel like waking up an hour earlier to share this all with you.... I already wake up early enough, and also I am still waking up with a baby 2x a night... So I chose too "sleep in" till 6 in the morning :)
Anyways....
Lets get on with the workout...
I am going to share a little bit of Tomorrows workout with you...
It is Shoulders and Core....

First, you're gonna warm up with Dumbbell Shoulder Press, 2 sets of 25 VERY LOW WEIGHT! (Warm up with very low weight only so you get blood flowing to those muscles.)

Then you're gonna do 3 sets of 12... be sure to use enough weight where you are struggling to do the last 1 to 3 reps.... If you can still keep going after 12.... well, you NEED a heavier weight.

Try some Rear Delt Flys on the Peck Deck.... Thats another weight I will be using tomorrow too! Do 4 sets of 10.. and again, STRUGGLE with the weight (but don't compromise form)

Use your imagination, and come up with some more shoulder weight lifting exercises.... Cuz I cant tell you all of mine ;)

Then do some core exercises....

Try the Plank
Or the Mason Twist or, my personal favorite to hate, the Stiff-legged V Bends.
Work yourself till failure, and then do it again. 4 times.

After that, and ONLY after you lift... you do your cardio.... Try a full 30 minutes, with no stopping.
Be sure to drink your Protein Shake afterwards!

You should be sweating like a whore in church by the end of your workout.... cuz if you still look pretty by the end, you didn't train hard enough.

Eat Clean, Train Dirty.
Hopefully I will see at least ONE of you in the gym soon!
Love all ya'll
Shanbug <3

So Sore, but I love it.

Working out is a sweet way to die slowly, and love every second of it.

I am on my 4th day of my intense workouts, and seriously, I cant move. I hate it so much, and yet I love it. My Husby has to help me take off my sports bra and put on my shirt... cuz moving my arms above my head is the worst. I don't think he minds that though. :P

Thank goodness for my sister in law, who is my workout partner. It is so much easier to have someone there to push you, motivate you and hate the workouts with you all at the same time. And plus, its nice to have someone there to chitchat about life with. That really helps.

I started my workouts on Tuesday of this week, with a starting weight of 126.4.... Four days later, this is my weight....

Really? I have officially hit 125 Pounds? O.M.G.
I am within 5 pounds of my goal!!!

And of coarse, not only do I train like a beast, I eat like one too! I eat 5 meals a day... 2 shakes, 2 snacks and a Big Lunch! I have to FORCE myself to eat every 2-3 hours.... now that is an awesome accomplishment...

My Husby said that his gift to me after I hit my goal weight is that he will take me to get my belly button pierced.... I have wanted it for a long time, and since I am working my ASS off to get my body to where I want it... WHY NOT? I deserve it.. I deserve to do something for myself.
I am hoping to be at my goal weight in the next 4 weeks....
The last 5 pounds are the hardest, but I am going to do this! I am determined...
And plus, we have a cruise to go on in October, and I don't want to be embarrassed about how my body looks when I am the only one who can change it!

Ever since I have started this intense training and eating as healthy as possible, I have noticed that my PPD has gone down.. and when I do start to get depressed, I cant come out of it a lot quicker than before, and plus, I am too sore to sit here and cry.... My stomach muscles would HATE my if I did that. Even my brain is tired....
And I have to admit it... I love it.
I love every second of my soreness, I love barely being able to move. It is seriously the best feeling of death I could possible wish for.
You should try it.

I thought I might share my progress pix thus far....

First Picture was about 2 weeks after my baby..  I'm guessing in Mid april- couldn't tell you the exact day. ... busting out of my fat jeans at a whopping 171.
And the second picture was Last Sunday... June 29. I weighed 126.5 pounds.

Anything is possible.. and If I can do it, I know you can too...
the hardest part is the first step... so get out there and push yourself... and when you hit that point when you feel like you're gonna die... push harder. Your mind gives out before your legs will... so keep truckin' on..... you got this!


<3 Shanbug